It doesn’t matter if you fail but not try. 

I had this thought since I was a boy but I had never understood it. 

Well, theoretically speaking I knew what it says or mean but it didnt sink in my body and mind to feel the meaning of it. 

So now I am trying , there are challenges, a lot of challenges like fear of failure, shame, guilt, rejection but I guess it’s how it is. 

I finally sent a draft of my poems, truth be told that I don’t have high hopes, because of many technical reasons. 

1- publishers got many manuscript everyday which makes it complicated as human intention span is quite limited and we are tend to be judgemental with experience, The most and biggest disasters in the world came because experienced people gave their opinions and decisions high value. 

2- Proof reading, I think over the years, quality of my English skill is downgraded  not that it was perfect before but without a proof reader to correct the manuscript , it can be challenging if publisher misunderstood what I was trying to say. 

3- I made a book cover which contains an image of my painting. I really like that painting because it tells a tale of how I feel and think . 

I shall see what the response will be otherwise I will send to other publishers. 

I want to do this for so long and I want to do this now because in my gut, time is right. 

My work on short stories is moving forward, I come up with some new ideas and write about them to see how they develop.